So yeah, September is turning out to be quite the overwhelming/fucked up month. I've been back in school for 4 weeks and I feel so stressed/overwhelmed. Not so much the classes, but the fact I'm working full-time on top of it.
I've missed 4 classes as of today, and I dread going in tomorrow because I don't want to get lectured by the teacher about missing a class and how intensive the program is. I'm trying really hard to get my butt in gear, but there are not enough hours in a day to do what I have to do. I go to class from 7:45am to 11:45am. Then head to work immediately after, I don't get home until 11:30pm. So I'm lucky if I can get about 5 hours sleep each night.
I wish I had the support of a family like Ricky does. His parents allow him to stay at home without paying any bills so he can go through Med School. I have to pay bills, on top of school, so the constant idea of $$$ is on my mind. I've come to the realization my father is not much of one based on how he treats me/depends on me to take care of everything, and it sucks more because I can't leave ... nowhere to go.
I really just feel stuck. I like work, I like school, but together I'm so overwhelmed it's taking a toll on me and the one person I want to confide in (Ricky) I feel might judge me as a failure. He went through 4 years without missing a day, plus working full-time.
... I wish I could do that :(
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